Artist Ups and Downs!

Ever feel like you are on a roller coaster struggling along to get to the top to enjoy a few moments of wind in your sail? Or maybe it’s like riding a bike. Sometimes you pray for a hill ahead just so you get the opportunity to coast down it, even if for just a few seconds.

I have been diligently working getting things together for an art and craft fair I committed to do. Not something I normally do but am trying to step out of my comfort zone and share my art with others. At the same time I am working hard at building my own website a project that is much more involved then I would have thought. ( hat’s off to all you website builders) Both of these projects have taken a whole lot of time and effort. Last night and early this morning I really started to question things. What I am doing? Why am I doing this? All this time and investment is it really worth it? Am I crazy? all I wanted to do was paint and here I am doing all this admin stuff. Funny (or not so funny) how all those thoughts again just carry me away.

Later this afternoon I got an email from an art association I am a member of saying a local magazine is going to do an article on the Association and would like to highlight my painting in their December issue. And you bettcha.. a girl’s mood can change at the drop of a dime. It’s that easy. I’ve been on that downhill ever since. Is this normal?

Now, I don’t even know what that means to highlight my painting but it sure sounds good. And you know what I am a believer in signs and whatever it is I take it as confirmation that I am doing what I should be doing. But why do I question it? I am following my intuition, doing what I love to do and actually choosing to do it. Still Debbie Doubt shows her face and down the rabbit hole I go!

I am sure it is part of life. Happens to everyone. Right? Maybe it is how we learn to trust. To remind ourselves we are guided and on the right path.

I would like to trust more. I do believe I am being guided. I just forget. One thing I know for sure though is that hill is going to come down and there is most likely going to be a lot more ups and downs along the road so I guess I better get used to the ride!